Keeping up

I've realized that it is hard to have my blog keep up with my thoughts. Way too many thoughts pass through my head each day, and there is no way I can keep a detail blog of it. I do want to get them down on paper though, its a way for me to clear them out of my mind. So I'm going to keep this simple, and just let my mind speak...

I am totally in love with Electronica. My taste in music has always been changing as I mature and explore, its been a journey. I know that I can be very picky when it comes to music, but I think I've definitely become more open. I feel like I've gone through a musical revelation in the past few months. Just within the category of Electronica, there is so much diversity, from minmalism to brain popping electronic beats. Its absolutely AMAZING. There is stuff that is so beautiful that it makes me want to lift up my arms and scream YEEEHHHH. There is stuff that is so fun that it makes me wanna dance my heart out. Now if only I can make my own music. I have a keyboard, but I can't play anything on it. I have an electric guitar, but I can't play anything on it. Its my fault for being a lazy ass. I wish my parents spanked me with chopsticks when I was little for not going to piano school. I wish they pushed me harder.
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party hoppin
shots poppin
I think I am absolutely crazy sometimes
yet, I've never felt so alive
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Amazingly, I've been keeping up with my New Year resolutions.
I've gone through some of the toughest times in my life in the past few months, and I feel like I finally know who my real friends are. They are the ones that always make time for me in their busy schedules even when I don't make time in mine for them. They are the ones that give without ever expecting a return. They are not the ones that only offer nice gestures, but actually act upon them. They are the ones that know to push me and knock on my door even after I've closed my door on them. Thank you for the endless hours of verbal diahrea by the side of the curb. Thank you for chugging those quarts of ice cream with me. Thank you for sitting there and listen to me ramble for hours. Thank you for making me laugh like I've never before. Thank you for always calling me to check up on me, even when I never pick up the phone. Thank you for being a stupid high school drama queen with me. Most importantly, thank you for always having me in your life even when sometimes I wasn't such a great of a friend. I've made some amazing friends this past year. I've broke down my walls, shared so much, listened so much. It is this stream of dialogue, stream of thoughts, that bring people closer together and onto another level. Never again will I rely my happiness and sanity on ONE person. I am going to cherish and embrace everybody that I have in my life right now. I love you all.
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I am going to move into a different apartment next year with some different friends. I'm going to be bringing some CRAZZIESS and fun in DA HOUSE. Strobe lights, black lights, my sick ass JBL creature. Oh yeahh, aren't you excited? I sure am!
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Let it go. I've told you that I've moved on. Believe me. I am over it. I am just curious thats all. So stop bringing it up. Stop reminding me by writing it all over my arm. It only pulls me back, and I want to move forward. Sure there is always a possibility for something better. But I am not going to sit here and wait and worry about it. If our lives meet again in the future, then so be it. But let it go.
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It has become so much easier to talk to my parents now. I feel like we almost reached the level of friendship. Its kinda cool. We even joke around now. I think they like my humor. I make them laugh. Its great. I love my parents.
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bottom line. Life is so fuckin awesome right now.