words

-5 hrs of partying. No restraint. No barrier. No wall
-3 hrs over shaved ice. Lychee frozen yogurt, condensed milk, red bean paste, strawberries, kiwi, and mango
-1 hr from top bunk to lower bunk
-3 hrs over sausage links, hash browns, scrambled eggs with cheese, Pillsbury cinnamon rolls, a diet coke, and Mean Girls
-2 hrs of IM conversation with you, 1 hr with you, 30 minutes with you, 4o minutes with you, and 10 minutes with you
-2 hrs of sitting next to you as you waited to dry the sweat off your back and your clothes, as you waited to hear the good news, as you jumped up and down in joy, as you screamed and danced around, as I hugged and danced with you
-4 hrs at clinic, cooking, cleaning, talking, listening, laughing, all that good stuff
-too many hours with myself

With the onset of year 2009, I told myself that I would value my friendships more, because without you, friendship was all that I had. And so I put my friendships up on a pedestal, I treasured and cherished them. I worked and pushed and delved so that I could keep up with everyone. I put in time, I put in effort, I invested emotionally. I listened to your words, took them to heart and found meaning in them. I found meaning in human relationships. I learned. I grew. I became a bigger and better person. I took all the shit that was thrown at me, and I didn't say anything because I didn't want to ruin any friendships. I didn't want to open a can of worms. I braced it all, for the sake of you and me. How long have we known each other? 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 years? Long enough. Now I want to knock you off that fuckin pedestal and watch you fall. When you fall, and you look up at me to pick you up, I will say no.....but I know that will never happen, because I am Lisha, and I care way too much. I forgive. I will not let you wade in your water alone. Even if you do not fall, or do not ask me to pick you up, I will offer, and all you have to do is take it.

collision is such an ugly sound

life is good