Nervous

I am now officially a senior. Oh. My. God. I can't believe it. It felt like it was just yesterday when I first moved into the double in Griffiths Hall at Unit 2 and going up and down the floor meeting everyone. Now that I am a senior, I feel like the pressure is on. It is my last year to pull up my GPA, my last year to get close to some faculty members here at Berkeley, my last chance to get clinical experience, my last chance to fuckin prove myself. I think after this summer, and after putting all this time and effort, I've decided that I REALLY want to go to medical school. Now that I am finally set on this path, I feel like I need to sell my soul in order to get there. It doesn't matter what I like and don't like, I just have to do whatever that it takes to get there. It sucks, it really does. Why does it have to be so hard? I am so nervous and scared. I am worried that in the end all my effort is worth nothing...