I took my last college final ever today. It was pretty unepic, a 1 hour "final" in Nutri Sci 10. I think finishing my MCAT was much more epic. Anyways, so I've been reflecting my past four years at Berkeley, and although there were many things I wish I had done, things that I wish I could change, overall I think I am very content with my college experience in Berkeley. I remember entering Berkeley as a narrow minded Freshmen who was unwilling to try anything new. Looking back, I was pretty pathetic. I think things really turned around when I got out of a long term relationship that simply just wasn't working, got a new set of roommates, met new people, and WABAM, everything changed. Now I can graduate and say that I definitely lived the college experience. Sure things got a little crazy, but I'm still alive, and my grades are not too shabby. What's crazy is not to live a little right? Seriously, we don't have a second chance to relive college, and college is where the majority of experiences take place, where there are trial and errors, ups and downs, successes and failures. If we didn't grasp that opportunity, we'll never get another chance.
Speaking about relationships...I don't know if being in a relationship in college is a good thing or bad thing. I'm still pretty torn about it. I know people who have been in one single relationship the majority of their college careers, for some, their entire college career. I feel like for many people, the way they lived college was pretty much dictated by their relationships. Sometimes when I have friends who get in a relationship, I'm happy for them, but at the same time, I'm a little sad as well. It just seems everyone becomes boring after they get into a relationship, and it seems like they age 20 years. Once people are in relationships, they prefer to sit at the corner of the room by themselves at a party, they prefer to staying in instead of hanging out with friends, they always get tired and leave early at events, and they are always together. Couples begin to be identified as couples rather than individuals. One person is always so and so's boyfriend or girlfriend. Sometimes it's as if they have separation anxiety if one is ever alone. If I ever get into a relationship and become one of those people, please, somebody grab me and smack some sense into me. But if I'm 27 and still single, someone smack some sense into me as well...lol. Seriously though, is it just me? Or does no one else notices this? Then again, who am I to look at other people's lives and judge based on how I would perceive them? How can I look at other people's lives through my perspective. Maybe for them, their college experience equals finding that one person they'll spend the rest of their lives with. Maybe they are perfectly happy, and they may look at my single life as sad, miserable, and pathetic. Well, what can I say, it is really none of my business. I guess sometimes I just want to be able to spend some time with my friends, without always feeling like the third wheel.
I definitely feel like I've grown a lot as a person at Berkeley. Lots of things await in the future, and I feel like I'm more prepared for it. So..this is the end huh? Yuppp
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I feel like we have inverse experiences of college, hah. I came into college exploding all over the place, racking up a list of shocking new things I've done, then out of nowhere on that really random night (you were dancing right next to me remember?) I fell into a long term relationship that has began to exhaustively define who I am. I went from being that person who said "one plus one does not equal one" to that person who says, "him and me, we are one person". It really bothers me now when I see ppl who hate couples. One night, I was wearing one of Si's shoes because he broke mine, and this girl behind us said "I hate couples". I said, "She wouldn't hate couples if she had a good relationship". I was sort of drunk, so I said it too loudly, which of course I ended up being glad about, but I still believe that. Maybe the phenomena here is that we look at the "other" group and disparage them, or maybe it's something else. I don't really know what I'm trying to say...I guess just that, both lifestyles and perspectives are valid.
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